Waiting

Today is 5 weeks since we received the phone call that will forever change our lives. We have 4 pictures and a complete referral packet which talks in detail of our Katie, yet she is half way around the world. We must wait for the seemingly never ending paperwork to be processed. We only are given an estimate for the timeframe, which is 1-6 months, but most likely 2 months. Which if it were 2 months we are only 3 more weeks away. Only. Then we must wait for one last round of paperwork to be processed. Our invitation to come to China to meet our Katie, and again more paperwork.

Each day gets harder and harder waiting. I can't help myself but look at the clock and know what she is doing, at least according to her schedule that we have been given. I tell you the truth in that each morning the first thought that comes to my mind is what is Katie doing? Sometimes I am dreaming about her and it takes me a minute to acclimate to the fact that she is not here, sleeping in her crib. The reality sets in that we are still waiting.

Our house is never quite right when one of our children are not here. Over the years we've gotten use to sleepovers, and as our oldest two sons may be gone more then before, however it just seems like something is missing. In our case now, our youngest daughter is. We ache to have her with us. Brooke is practicing holding her with her babies. She talks about her baby sister everyday. Katie is so loved.

The waiting makes me think of how God must feel, waiting for people to come to him. How He loves us so much, and yet people deny Him everyday. They may come to Him during a tragedy, but then get back to "their" lives on their own. We saw this happen as a country after 911.